disFigured me

How come I\'m sad from the words just pronounced How come that all effort is useless, where the energy loses Am I dreaming, is it really me? What\'s wrong.. see not

Is it a fate to be fated, know not

[day]
Every day the sharp knife cut me,
When you think about what happened and what will never happen again
It's a tortment of soul

How narrow is your viewpoint to the "world",
it's enough for somebody, not for me

So much saddness in your heart, fall into depth nothingness

How's possible these thoughts flood my brain everyday,
Am I only strange or there's another explanation...
God, tell me

[night]
Consolation in sleeping finding,
sore in yourself suppresing,
don't be impatient the world is comming
so much time left to the end of paradise


I'm old enough to make it up what I haven't deserved,
Blessing isn't neverending, can't be..

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